TAKE ME

In darkness of the night around my senses
there's a shadow, big and strong, outside my fences.
I walked alone whole night chasing visions
of threat above my freedom.

He bends over me when I sleep in warm softly,
but in the morning he disappears with fantasy...
He sends his care though he'll hide it well
and he'll make power game from my hell.


Who will make and force through the pains
the storm present in my veins?

I'm not just a child, I'm also so vulnerable inside.
I'm a warrior but I also need to hide
from all pains that the big world brings,
It's so dangerous and wide.
I'd refuse to let you be my guide, but...


Take me, make me your servant and pupil,
put me up higher than I'd ever dared look
and hit me down before it gets to late.
In shelter, in your hands is my fate...

DESCRIPTION:

Selisi Rigow: During night there is a big, strong man who is out there, watching my every step, surrounding me.
I tried to run after him, to find him and confront him, but being so haunted by him I was seeing him everywhere, even in many things that had nothing to do with him. He himself is that threat to my freedom, he wants to capture me.

While I'm sleeping sweetly (as a child that I still am) he's watching me but when I'm waking up and dreams fade away it feels like he's never been here for real.
He actually cares for me and will even keep me safe, even though he will still try to keep it a secret from me and he will play and enjoy hurting me.
 

I can feel his presence as a storm of emotions since he is really... scary.

After confronting him, fighting him and getting defeated and broken by him
I ask him to take me, not wanting it, but because HE wants me to...

Put me up higher than I'd ever dared look and hit me down before it gets to late. - Make me great in doing things and show me that I'm not the greatest before my ego gets too strong.

Broken, I accept the fate that you've planned for me

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(Don't forget that this as a whole is just a story, not real life... some parts are my real feelings though - the last part I would say to God willingly.)